Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Our Fifth IUI..

Well, here we are again. Our fifth IUI. At least for me, my feelings about what we're going through seem to shift and change with each cycle. Sometimes I am full of hope and sure things will be just fine, other times I have more questions lingering in my mind, and sometimes I am just downright sad or overwhelmed. This month, I'm feeling sick of all of this.


I know many people read these types of blogs for hope and inspiration, but I really do want to be real here. Infertility is hard. Not having a baby when you desperately want one is hard. Taking fertility medications is hard. Getting poked and stabbed is hard. And then it's also hard once you see the bill and realize you're paying to get prodded with ultrasound wands and tubes slipped inside of you.. and you still don't have the baby you've been hoping for after years.

But I think most of us who go through any fertility issues at all are familiar with the ups and downs. You can't predict what might happen or what may be in store next month. At times, you will be bursting with hope! But sometimes, you will be full of despair. And that's okay.

Again this month we are doing 100 mg of Clomid, CD 3-7. I am very used to taking the Clomid now. At first, I really had a lot of anxiety about it, but that is gone now. I even used to hate the taste of the pill! But I must have gotten used to that as well. Thankfully, I'm still doing really well and have only had a couple of hot flashes here and there.

I am to start OPKs on CD 10, as usual.

I got my positive OPK on CD 13, one day later than usual for my Clomid cycles. Not quite sure why, but I'm sure it could just be natural variation. I called in to let them know we'd be in the next morning. Definitely feeling quite routine now!

We dropped off the sample, headed out to breakfast, then stopped at a nearby store. I picked up some seeds for our vegetable garden in the spring. We start our seeds quite a long time before we plant the garden in May, so I shop early!

At 10:30 AM, it was time to head back to the fertility center for the actual IUI. Thankfully it's only 15 minutes from our house. We're so lucky to have such a good office so close to us - I know so many people need to travel to get treatment.

When we got into the exam room, the usual doctor came in. But a familiar nurse showed up as well! She was the nurse who did our IUI back in November, and we actually got pregnant! She remembered us and said she was so sad to hear about what had happened with the chemical pregnancy and the illness I had. I was really hoping it was a good sign she was there.

Our ultrasound showed two mature follicles, one on the right and one on the left. The one on the left ovary was 26 mm and the one on the right ovary was 15 mm. I was a bit disappointed in the size of the smaller one. My RE's office considers anything 15 mm and up to be mature, but it's not a sure thing that it will contain a mature egg, or will even ovulate. So technically, two mature eggs... but the smaller one was definitely a little iffy. My lining was good at 8.79 mm

Our washed sperm sample was 26.5 million with 59% motility. So this was our second best sample yet in terms of number of motile sperm. Really keeping our fingers crossed for this cycle!

I had no symptoms or anything strange during the TWW, and I guess I should have figured that this was going to be another BFN cycle.



AF arrived this morning, but I'm not too surprised. BFN's are the norm for me, so it's almost easier to just expect that! Still remaining hopeful that our next IUI will be the lucky one where we get out take home baby. I'm still waiting on a call back from my nurse for next cycle, because I have a lot of questions to ask this time about how to move forward if our last IUI doesn't work out.

Staying hopeful..


Want to hear about our other IUIs? 

2 comments:

  1. Hello! I found your blog today while looking on Pinterest for IUI related pins - a fave activity of mine in the final days of my cycle, hoping a pin with all of the answers I'm looking for will magically appear. While magical answers never appear, I sometimes find gems like your post which lead me to a blog which rings particularly close to home. I'm currently CD23, 9DPIUI (3rd IUI, 100mg Clomid). Anxiously waiting for the outcome. Thank you for your bravery in sharing your journey. Gabrielle

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    1. Hi Gabrielle! Thanks so much for commenting. I know exactly what you mean about Pinterest. I do the same thing :) It's actually one of the reasons I started the blog! Waiting for the outcome is the hardest part of the cycle. Sending positive thoughts your way and I really hope your IUI was successful!

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